January 30, 2012

I've Been Living: 2 Decades and a Year :D



wow, time flies faster than i thought
i'm 21 today

there are still a lot of things i wanna do
a lot of dreams i want to reach

i hope i'll be a better person from now on
21 in 2012 will be a new leaf for me

to all the people who remember me today
and wish me
thanks so much

and to my best friend
thanks for the lovely present you gave me

January 28, 2012

sebab kau

selalunya aku tak mahu cakap banyak
tapi jujur, aku dah tak tahan lagi

aku benci bila kau buat aku macam ni
rupanya macam ni lah rasa bila kita marah tapi masih sabar

sakit hati aku
aku tak tahu nak cakap apa, tapi betul
aku tak rasa semangat sekarang

January 27, 2012

January 23, 2012

it was all a lie?


tonight, 23rd of january 2012 
i never thought tonight would be such a big reversal in my life

someone i trusted so much
that i thought was a very good friend of mine
turn her back from me

and what hurts the most 
is the fact that i was totally oblivious of it
and the fact that even after i find out about it
i still, like her, and put all the blame on me
and the fact that even after i know the truth
i still want her to be my friend and still want to say nice things about her

am i stupid? or too naive?
maybe it was partially my fault
i don't know
because for the whole time, i thought we were okay
we're cool

but actually she hates me
and i can't bring myself to hate her
so i hate myself even more for that

well, maybe it's better like this
maybe life would turn out better
maybe being apart would change things

i'm always the type of person who can detect someone mood almost at one glance
so how come, it was so hard on her
was it because she was so good?
or was it because i was blinded by the word friendship?

i really really like to be her friend
she is like one of my best friend in the world
even it turns out to be this
i still want that to not change

so i decided to keep my mouth shut
because our memories worth a lot more than this pain she gave me

and maybe the problem lies within me

i just hope she will find a better friend
a happier life

cause i doubt that i will

the future with SOPA. let's stop it!

cr: 9gag

i think there is a better way other than SOPA
i mean, how would we live without internet freedom
i mean, i would go crazy being unable to connect with my foreign friends
it will kill me *literally*
life would be different

Michelle Phan - Underneath Your Love


well, i love cheesy story
waited for this short movie from michelle for awhile
it's so beautiful
especially, that dress :D

January 22, 2012

can you keep a secret?

i never thought it will end like this

i've been trying so hard to make it last
and now by days
the friendship seems to become more tinted
i miss the wonderful days where everything seems easier

can you keep a secret?
i'm so hurt by the word from someone i never thought would be saying that
so i give up
even if i need to pay a lot more than what i could've endure

this should be the end
trying to be nice even if you're hurt is one thing
now i'm really hurt that pretending would make me sick

soon it will be a goodbye
it's hard for me to do this
but it's better
even i know life wouldn't be the same anymore

January 11, 2012

Golden Disk Award ~ SUPER JUNIOR!



assalamualaikum and hey hey peeps :D
wuhuuuuu..yahoooo..sobs sobss
right now i'm in a mixed emotion

SUPER JUNIOR WON DISK DAESANG!
plus more awards which are the:
- Popularity Award
-MSN Japan Award
-Bonsang Award
- Best Selling Act Award


plus, it's been said that 

since debut, SJ has been awarded 13 trophies in GDA. People said that this is the best record since GDA started(since 26 years ago) ! I'm SO PROUD!


my feeling right now is indescribable! 
all of our hard work in 2011 has paid off!

seeing their happy face from the pictures
it's more than we wished!

the members have been updating their twitter and blog account
so go and check out twitter for more info :D

now i'm more than happy to continue reading! 
wish me luck for tomorrow's paper :D


GDA : Nervousness, Frustration and Headache

assalamualaikum and hey hey peeps

to dear elfs!
it's D-DAY!!
after struggling of buying albums, voting online
today is the revelation day!

GDA 2011 in Osaka
i wonder if we'll be able to grab the GDA award for Super Junior after all the things we've done to reclaim and prove once again that Super Junior are the best!

i'm so frustrated that there is no live streaming available like last year.
it's so hard just to rely on twitter updates from fans in Osaka

but one thing that i know is so awesome in this GDA is this!


we elfs can't help but wonder if it's really GDA or Super Show?
Sapphire Blue cover almost everything?
it's beyond words.

plus the fact that i have paper tomorrow
makes me have double headache
i'm reading while looking at updates in twitter
it's killing me

i hope our dreams will come true this time
please let Super Junior win
please..
or i will cry...


January 09, 2012

kindness from a stranger that touched my heart.

cr: killytron

assalamualaikum and hey hey peeps ;D

note:
in celebration of january 2012 as National Thank You Month, i decided to express my thankfulness to two stranger that i met earlier tonight. and ohh, don't ask me which country it is that do this 'National Thank You Month' because i'm not sure but i think it's a good idea. well, we actually need to be thankful always, but it's good to have some times to actually over-emphasizing our thankful feeling :D

i'm right now in a very good mood.
well, not exactly good-the-ecstatic type of mood
it's more like good-feels-like-crying type of mood
got it?
well, it's not anything big, it's not anything exciting, not anything out of ordinary
just a simple act from two strangers that made me smile happily now.
i'm just so touched.

today, i went to finish my third language listening test when my friend ask me to have dinner with her
since it's been awhile and i also need to buy some groceries,  i agreed.

we had dinner and went to buy our stuffs.
since it's already around 9 pm, and i want to go back, we went to find a taxi
but there was no taxi available
until one taxi driver stopped 

inside the taxi was another passenger. well, actually it's not a passenger. it's the taxi ajusshi's (uncle) wife.
they're actually on their way to the i-city but when that kind lady saw us with a lot of stuffs in our hand, she asked her husband to pick us up when our destination is on the opposite side.

they're actually (literally) was on their way for a date. 
but they were so kind to send me home first and then go back to continue the plan.

that was not just that. they were so kind, asking me this and that and made me really comfortable in the taxi when i at first don't feel very comfortable since i feel like i'm making the taxi driver work when it's not actually his working time. 

yeah yeah, i know that they actually will get paid by me. but it's just my conscience.
not just that, i actually intend to let them drop me off in front of my apartment gate
but once again, the kind lady and ajusshi insisted to send me inside ( i mean till the front of the lift)

it's so touching to get such nice treatment and kindness from a stranger.
they also tell me they are from sabah and live in kl. and that ajusshi doesn't really know the area around shah alam since he mostly pick foreigner around sunway area to send to airports.

so that makes me even more thankful because despite the fact that i actually interrupt their plan, and he don't know the way, they still kindly agree to send me home.

and ohh, they also tell me that they have a niece, from sabah that is now studying in uitm too.
they told me that she haven't call home for awhile and her parents is very worried about her.

well, i know the girl name but i don't think it's appropriate to mention it here.
she is a 'fakulti perladangan/perhutanan' student (i'm not very sure)
and she haven't been in touch with her parents nor her uncle (the taxi driver) and that kind lady

so i really hope that she would contact her parents a.s.a.p
i know the chance that she will be reading this is almost 0%
but it's just a way i could do to express my gratitude to that taxi driver and her wife.

to that girl, i don't know if you're older or younger than me
but i think, the way you treat your family is wrong
idk what problem you have with your family
you still need to contact them
because blood is wayy thicker than water

just because you're a university student now and live in kuala lumpur /city
doesn't mean you should forget who you are before

i hope they'll get to contact her
and to that taxi driver uncle and his wife~ have fun dating in i-city :D
thank you very much ~

p/s: the moral is, even smallest kindness can touch a stranger's heart. so be kind to everyone.
 you'll be happy in life :D

davichi & t-ara: we were in love

assalamualaikum and hey hey peeps!

if you guys ada tengok lovey dovey mv which is the continuation of cry cry mv by t-ara
dalam mv lovey dovey tu, ada lagu ballad yang sangat awesome
sebab ramai sangat yang tertanya-tanya, meh i tolong jawabkan :D


song tittle: we were in love
artist: davichi and t-ara

if you guys nak tahu
i memang suka vocal davichi ni and t-ara is indeed my fav girl group

keep playing this song since the day lovey dovey mv was out
plus, mv we were in love ni simple and nice

jiyeon comel sangat dalam tuh..hihii

p/s: company diorang which is LOENet kalau buat lagu style OST ni memang best!

life's guide: the story of a mayonnaise jar


i got it from facebook. it's nice to read this during the exam period. it's comforting

When things in your life seem, almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class
and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.
He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls.
He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.
'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things - family,
children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions –
Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.
The sand is everything else --The small stuff.
'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.
If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are important to you.
So...
Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play With your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.
There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.
'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.
One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.
The professor smiled
'I'm glad you asked'.
It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
There’s always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

January 08, 2012

new shoutbox!

cr: justafuckingteen

assalamualaikum and hey hey peeps!

yayyyy! throws confetti!!
i finally gather up my will to change the old shoutbox which is the now-not-free-shoutmix to a brand new shoutbox!


i think it's cool! 
but since it's still a beta version, there's a lot of thing that is unavailable for now
but overall! it's awesome! jjangg!! daebak!!

so you can start shouting again!!

p/s: please don't do commercials on my shoutbox. it's annoying :(

okies, back to reading! byeong!

hari-hari di minggu exam

cr: ego-rex

assalamualaikum and hey hey peeps

nak tahu tak apa yang best and tak best time exam week bila dah start masuk universiti ni?

first, kita boleh balik rumah time seminggu study week. selalunya, student angkat buku bawak balik berkilo-kilo, tapi baca tak sampai setengah dari sekilo tu. haha, tapi better dari yang memang tak bawak balik langsung sebab yang tu punya kes diorang dah confirm tak kan baca so buat penat je bawak balik. tapi tu diorang tau, i tak :P

satu lagi is when gap exam yang besar. macam tahun lepas, i punya gap exam sangat lah "hell". hari ni satu paper, the next day pulak dua paper, rasa macam nak terjun bangunan swimming pool tau. tapi tahun ni gap 4 hari , ke lima hari, paling sikit pun satu hari. ok lah sikit. kurang sesak nafas ni.
tapi subject tahun ni double killer. so paham-paham je lah

duit jimat. hmm, taktau lah korang, but duit i memang jimat time exam week ni.
tolak lunch, tolak cekedis, tolak tambang bus
haha, jadi kaya kejap.
tapi jangan risau, habis je paper, sekelip mata duit tu habis balik..ehehhe

so apa yang tak best?

THE WORD EXAM ITSELF

takyah nak explain panjang-panjang
exam memang tak best..ahahha

okay, dah habis membebel.
sebenarnya malas nak update blog ni, tapi rasa macam tak productive je.

till next entry~ annyeong! byeong~byeong ^^

p/s:  i bet most of us yang ada exam now look just like the picture above~ >> half-dead :D
goodluck people! i have three more to go!

p/p/s: shoutmix dah takde, tapi malas nak tukar, tunggu cuti nanti yer :D

January 05, 2012

20 promises to myself in 2012.


my new year resolutions are:
1. try to make mum and dad smile at least once a day. be a lot more fillial.
2. try to increase my self esteem and confidence more because i seriously need that.
3. take care of my skin better, i like makeup but this year i'm gonna do both, makeup and skin care since i'm just 21, but my skin look older (i think)
4. stop caring how i never have a boyfriend like others, i seriously need to appreciate myself more (usually i don't care, but i do sometimes)
5. have a better lifestyle as in sleeping early, eat healthily, pray more, smile and laugh more
6. start writing diary again. i don't know why i stopped doing that but i'm gonna start to do it diligently again, it's good for my heart.
7. i need some attitude adjustment, because i think i've become more ego and stubborn towards my family but i never really speak up for myself to strangers/friends, i need to change that.
8. start remembering my friends and family birthdate again and never forget to wish them like last year, i've been a little selfish in 2011.
9. read more books, cook more at home, learn dancing.
10. pass my driving test and take my family somewhere for picnic.
11. never cry in front of anyone anymore.
12. do some volunteer work in 2012
13. avoid skipping class, get better grades, go to library once in awhile
14. start working to recover from my addiction towards coke
15. stop fighting with my brothers, be a little more mature and tolerant and kind
16. try to eat at dinner table instead of  in front of my laptop or tv
17. eat less junk foods, order less delivery or take away
18. go green, save electricity, save water, start recycling
19. take my financial management seriously, keep a 'spending journal'
20. start working up to achieve my long term goals in my bucket lists

January 04, 2012

dugaan betul~

paper first nih banyak betul dugaan
dah lah mengantuk
bengang dengan beberapa manusia lagi
tak boleh fokus
dah hafal bergantang-gantang pun last-last tak ingat

nak hilangkan mengantuk
bukan setakat melompat
siap menari, melalak, menyanyi semua ada


hehheeh..mintak ampun guys
bila i start duduk kat meja study ni
blog entry mesti melimpah ruah
hihiih

January 03, 2012

t-ara lovey dovey mv [t-ara cry cry part 2]

assalamualaikum and hey hey peeps

oh gosh i know my paper is tomorrow
but finally after approximately 1 month or more of waiting
t-ara released their part 2 of Cry Cry MV called Lovey Dovey

i posted the teaser before so this is the long awaited mv



it's so sad
i swear i won't cry but at the end i cried like crazy
i love it so much!

cha seung won acting is just awesome
i love the story line

got my district! :D

can't wait to watch the hunger game!
i've got my panem's identification!
district 5! hello!! yahoo!!


p/s: my first paper is tomorrow
more hunger game OR super junior spazzing have to wait
wish me luck :D

bila dah pinjam, pulangkan


pernah tak korang pinjamkan something kat orang
dia tak jaga elok-elok, hilangkan?
or worse tak reti nak pulangkan?

sila jangan bersikap begitu
sebab anda akan dilabel sebagai orang yang annoying!


saya sangat annoyed sekarang!
bengang!

January 01, 2012

first in two thousand twelve :D




assalamualaikum and hey hey peeps!
omo~omo~ it's new year already!! wishing you a happy 2012
i thought of posting something exactly at 12.00 am last night
but i fell asleep earlier..hihi

what more to say ehh?
hmmmmm...i wish you another awesome year and i hope 2011 brings a LOT of memories :D
2011 is a year i won't forget
and yay! i'm 21 now, or 21 to-be in exactly 29 days from now :D
that's all
i'm having finals in a few days
so i'm quite busy with readings

bye bye "D
p/s: to those who asked me to make those free headers
i'm sorry i have exams to sit
plus i don't have the time
so sorry!

p/p/s: and ohhhh 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE SUNGMIN !