that black kitten

cr: otakulei

hate me...because i lied

hate me.. because i have given up

hate me.. because i think it's too tiring

every day, i wake up

dragging my feet

gathering my strength

for this

i know

i should give my all

since it's already written for me

but i can't find it

that little courage

that i have lost somewhere on my way here

there is no such thing

as meaningless thing

even that

i find hard to compromise

i want to run

like a useless coward 

to turn away from this nightmare

that i have created myself

what should it do?

return it to me

i don't want to keep losing my way

it's tiring....

(1:40 am, little kitten)