when my mouth doesn't get along with my heart

have you guys ever experienced this kind of situation before?

i bet, everyone have gone through this

even once

there are times, when i can't control myself

at times like this

my mouth refuse to say what my heart tells

i tend to say things which are totally not my intention

when i like someone but afraid my feelings to be revealed

i get mad at them, saying inappropriate things

doing things as if the person are my worst enemy

there are also times

when my heart was burning in anger

and i hate one particular person so much

but i can't even say one bad thing

even a curse

when my mouth, heart as well as my brain doesn't get along like this

i really hate it, it make me angry

because, when this happen i won't get to tell my real feelings

it's not like i wanna be a total jerk every time i meet someone i don't like

but i wish it won't happen too often

when my mouth refused to say what my heart feels

i lose the opportunity to say something that i should

now, i have missed that kind of opportunity

i am left with nothing but regret

i keep asking myself

what if i didn't yell at the person?

maybe we will keep in touch till now?

what if i don't get mad everytime?

maybe we will at least be friend till now?

what if my mouth doesn't say things that my heart doesn't intend to?

maybe i could have a clear ending?

maybe i won't keep thinking at every possibilities like right now?

maybe my life would be a little different?

i know that i shouldn't act like this. i should forget the past and march into the future.

i know i should keep going and keep all the memories as a mere memories

i know i shouldn't drag things like this

but still i keep asking myself

what if?