Thinker Belle

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Opening My New Year; Reminiscing & Talking About Future Plans 💗

Annyeong, friends.
I would like to wish you a happy new year! Can't believe 2018 is over and now we're just one year away to 2020. Sigh, 2020! I used to think that it would be a way too far in the future but look at us, waltzing into 2019 in just a blink. Maybe because how the government used to talk about the year 2020 (Wawason 2020 if you know what I mean) and all the aims they had for the country when I was younger, I always imagined that people would be going around in flying cars by the time. I know now that's probably a bit far-fetched of a dream but looking at the development of technologies so far, I guess humanity did pretty good at the moment. We have self-driving cars and mobile phones that unlock itself with just a single look, so that's quite cool, don't you think?

Who would have guessed that we would evolve this much in such a short span of time? It's really amazing to think about! Seriously, compared to kids these days who already have their iPads at such a tender age, when I was seven, there were not many gadgets around me. The closest one I had was those cheap game console where you can play classic games like Tetris and Snake, bought from the night market and costed about RM10 each. Even that required plenty of begging and sulking before my parent actually agreed to buy it for me.

And believe it or not, my younger self actually spent quite some time going around the neighbourhood; riding the bicycle, flying kites, making fake rifles from wood, playing hide and seek and many more. Such a stark contrast with our lifestyles now, don't you think? I mean, of course, comparing two generations lifestyle is not that simple. We have to remember the level of security now and back then is also very different. Children are less 'free' than we were before. I used to just go to the neighbourhood mart alone to buy snacks back then because it was safer. Now with kidnappers and paedophiles running around, it's not possible to let children out alone like before. It's so sad when you think about it, right?

Okay, maybe I went on too deep just now. I don't know, new years always give me some sense of melancholy, and I'm feeling it a bit more today. Anyway, since this blog post doesn't really have a specific purpose, a little reminiscing session seems like a good way to open the year too. I just feel like writing something without really pre-planning anything, just like how I used to do it a few years back. So that's why this blog post might be a little random and without purpose for some of you newer readers.

Like I said earlier, 2018 was filled with pre-planned posts (mostly beauty reviews) and they weren't a lot of them either. I used to be disappointed at myself for not writing more like how I used to, but at this point in my life, I have sort of accepted that publishing hundreds of postings a year is a bit too ambitious considering that I have a full-time job to focus on to as well. But I do want to go back to my old blogging style, which was more laid back and personal, with lots of rants like this. I don't know why I stopped doing that these past few years. Looking back now, it seems a little cold and impersonal, so I am hoping that I'll be able to sit down and write about random things on my blog once again. I'm not sure many people will like it or not because I do realise that people don't come to read blog posts as often as they did before. But, since my blog is actually intended to be some sort of online diary of my life, going back to how it used to seem like a good plan at the moment. I might change my mind again soon though, I am that fickle. LOL

I am planning to rethink a lot of other things this year too. Currently, I'm in the midst of making a huge life decision and if that plan comes through, I'll have to make a lot of changes in my financial planning as well. Can't be as reckless as I was in 2018 when it comes to purchasing decision anymore because I'll probably have a bigger responsibility coming soon; so balancing that has been giving me quite a headache so far. I'll share about that in the future once everything is confirmed and I'm ready to talk about it. I also need to do a major declutter; on physical things and also mentally speaking. I tend to overthink on stuff and still do it frequently, and they're not really healthy because I always managed to be too hard on myself and in the end, it'll just stress me out. So yeah, gotta get rid of useless thoughts, and focus on things that matter.

Last two years, my resolutions have been focusing a lot on physical things, but in 2019, I think I am going to focus more on personal growth. With my 28th birthday coming around the end of this month, I feel like some sort of emotional/mental growth needs to happen. Not anything major, but maybe to try to be a calmer adult, less paranoid (from overthinking), and to focus on finding happiness in little things and not depend too much on happiness that is brought by material and physical items. I mean, they're great but moments, memories and experiences sound much more precious to me right now. How about you, do you have a special resolution this year?

P/S: I also need to start reading again. 2018 was my worst year when it comes to it. I can't believe I let the year goes by without reading at least one book per month! Wait, did I even read one? I dunno.😅

Till next post, toodles~! ♥ミ


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