I've Decided!

cr: eurytale

assalamualaikum and hey hey peeps

i don't feel very well yesterday

too much crying and stressing out maybe?

keep getting an on and off fever

so i've decided

in order to make myself happier

i would be a little more honest to myself

and to my family and friends

actually, i can't sleep tonight

well, i do have problem getting myself to sleep every night

but this time, it's a different case

i just can't stop myself from worrying

actually, my dad had been sick these past weeks

and he's going to have a check up tomorrow

i'm worried sick now

i hope nothing's bad will come out after the check up

i don't particularly said this in front of my parents..like everyday

since i'm the kind of person who couldn't say her feeling out loud

but the fact that their existence are important to me

it's undeniable

i want my mum and dad to be happy and healthy

i want them to grow old together

watch me and my brothers get married

i want them to have many grandchildren

and the most important is i want to send them to Mekah

 i want to pay back everything they've done for me

so they have to live a very long life

so i can give these things to them

urghh..isn't it funny?

we children never seems to show appreciation to our parents

but at times like this

it would make us think and reflect

i love you mama, i love you ayah

please be healthy

i have so many things i want to give you

so please leave a long and healthy life